Life has felt pretty mundane recently. And that's just the biggest lie ever!
Life is far from mundane, and there's so much going on in my life I can't understand why I'd feel that way...
Last night, at church, I was talking to a man who is successfully weaning himself off a heroin addiction. Should he get clean, he has everything to live for. Life feels worthwhile if you can just help someone like that even a little bit along the way. I mean what else is there to live for but loving others?
So why does life feel so mundane? I'm not sure. Things came home to me most when a young disciple of mine, someone I love, found himself in serious trouble. In bed that night, I couldn't help feeling that things were almost too tedious to bear! Now surely that's the wrong response. I guess I just felt stressed.
I want to enjoy life, and there is a huge amount to enjoy... perhaps... well... is knowing the need to keep giving out in love causing a war within myself?... a war with my 'self?' all because I want some 'me' time? I literally don't have any other life and I don't want any other distraction than the Kingdom of God. I truly enjoy the life I lead. How, at the same time, can I feel so out of kilter?
Might I suggest 'it's the voice that calls' mate, and not yours. Perhaps you've heard, but not understood, or something passed under your radar?
ReplyDeleteI remember someone describing it to me as a "flash". It's what happens when your responsiblities a varied and many, (and yours are!) and you y'need a little push to look for that little extra something you need to give in service. Usually when it's the last thing you Want! :)
A little something 'um - outrageous?
that gets you into the radar but below the spotlight? It needn't be profound (for anyone else) - Just, unusal for you.
A couple of examples :-
A staid guy that after a couple of days fasting, who painted his visible parts purple to make a point in his teaching.
Another who hid in a wardrobe on stage thro'out a winning weekend.
A guy who loved company who raised money for the Purse by busking - alone.
A quiet and shy guy who designed and led a Techno-Style service, complete with rap & light show...
Hmm? What does your caring bro' say?
ps. excuse my spelling and grammatical errors - I had a lot of distractions
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Thanks Wheelie, I don't know really. I guess I just have to grasp the nettle of life with both hands...
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